Best of Both Worlds

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Seduced by the sunsets
As far as having a soul connection to a place, I have found mine. I am embedded and entwined in the land, the people, the animals and the ocean. I am kissed by the raindrops and seduced by the sunsets. I am warmed by the sand and washed by the waves. I dance with the glistening moonbeams and sing with the twinkling stars.
Sea of bliss
Playa Hermosa what have you done to me? It’s hard to leave this place, it gets into your blood intoxicating you in a sea of bliss. It gets into your heart filling you up with the primal, pulsation of the jungle. So grateful I have been able to experience a love so deep, so intense…..it makes me heartsick to say goodbye….even if it is only for a moment.
Relinquishing a love
One of our most challenging practices is letting go. Relinquishing a love is never easy, but a nessascary request us humans must oblige. Energy never dies….nor does love, it only changes forms. Ashes to ashes, dust to dust…..we will all go down in the proverbial fire someday.
The Paradise police
While we are of flesh and desire, we might as well live it up and savor every painstaking, breathtaking moment…..you never know when the paradise police may show up and tell you, your time is up…..you gotta go home now! Home…..that would be Denver, CO for me, which is an awesome place to return to.
A moment of reflection
I am back in Colorado and have been here for about two weeks now. It’s good to gain perspective, to switch it up a bit….to remember. Crazy how easily we can take some of our most cherished loves for granted. That’s why it is good to have absence, separation, a moment of reflection…time to recognize the things in life that we value and honor deeply.
Back to my roots
While I have been home, I have been reconnecting with old loves, family, friends and my yoga community at Vital Yoga in Denver, Co. Nice to come back to my roots, to rediscover and refine.
The Mile High City
Fresh green mountains, dancing with daisies, bluebird skies and la mota making me crazy! Chop sticks and nija fights, Sridaiva sure is making my ass tight! Love me some Colorado….the mile high city….you also have my heart. Equally as difficult to leave…..we will be reunited soon.
Back to the source
Once again, the pain of saying goodbye……followed by the sweetness of saying hello. A continual ebb and flow that will take us far away, only to bring us back to the source.
Always returning to love
I hope to embrace life’s adventures with an open heart and an open mind……always returning to love……until next time!

Hola Friends,
I am writing this as I sit in my hammock, listening to the locusts, to Pinta and Zulu’s puppy love fights, and to the sounds of my neighbors all carrying on different conversations, in different languages. It’s funny how something that used to be so foreign, is now so familiar, and something so familiar, is now so foreign.
 

A new life, a new start

When I came to Costa Rica, I was looking for a new life, a new start….a new me. The old me  was struggling, unhappy, and out of alignment. My issues were caused by numerous things, the climate, the city, the traffic, old tired shit that kept resurfacing….you name it. Oh, and not to mention the Anusara yoga community which I was deeply invested in collapsed. During this time I watched my friends and teachers tear one another apart, piece by piece, day by day. Relationships that were built over a decade, were dissolved in a moment.

Creation and dissolution

As I watched this all go down, I decided that this was a great time to get the frick out of dodge. I wanted no part of this war that was being fought….amazing how quickly things can get out of hand…even between people who are supposed to be opening their hearts, and their minds on a daily basis. I thought by removing myself from all of this, it would somehow protect me from this type of behavior. But, the reality is, that as we move through life, relationships will be created….and dissolved…within the blink of an eye.

Order to Chaos

 In order for rebirth to occur….death is innevitable….as painful as the process my be….it is however nescesary if we wish to continue to grow and evolve. And even if we are quite happy we are, and do not wish to engage in this process, the universe will not allow it, considering it expresses itself entropicly…..order to chaos. As soon as we get everything in optimal alignment, put all the pieces in what we think to be the right place…..it breaks itself apart…..again….and again.
 

Political yoga bullshit

The really nice thing about being here, is that I have removed myself from all of the political yoga bullshit….from the scholarly debates over which tradition is right….or left, or whether or not to stand with your feet together, or to keep them apart. And for the first time in almost ten years, I have been exploring my practice guided by me, which has been quite different from the constant tutelage that has grown me into the teacher that I am today.

All guilty and all innocent

I have sat back and observed all of this, trying my best to remain diplomatic, waving my white flag…por favor…no mas! But when people’s feelings get hurt, when livelihoods are threatened, shit get’s ugly. We are all guilty, and all innocent….we have all hurt, and been hurt. Two sides to the same coin….Kali and Sri.

The process of rebirth

What I haven’t removed myself from, is the process of rebirth….as much as I have tried to run from it, to hide from it, to battle it, to ride it, to continually to dodge it, it always finds me….even in the jungle…in a remote location…without traffic jams. The beauty of the rebirth, as painful as it may be, is that we get to reinvent ourselves in a way that illustrates, the lessons that we have learned, and the things in which we wish to create. Like a pupa in a chrysalis we begin the transformation process and eventually unfold, and unfurl into a new vibrant creation.

Surfing….the best therapy money can’t buy!

During this painful and beautiful process, I have found learning to surf some of the best therapy money can’t buy. The ocean has been my teacher, my friend, my companion, and my guide. Her lessons are a mixture of pleasure and pain, victory and triumph. She whispers sweet nothing’s, and then rips my safety device out from under me, and makes me swim into retrieve it! She asks me to hold bhujangasana, as I charge through the barreling waves, and then kicks the shit out of me! Followed by a moment of bliss, when you taste the sweetness of riding her spiraling vortex. 

My love affair

I also must give credit, where is due. I know without a doubt in my mind, my love affair with yoga, with Anusara, and with the philosophy that is so intricately woven through it, has most certainly assisted my transformation into an ocean loving, wave riding banshee!

Catalyst for your latest creation

So, if you’re in need of an adventure, and a catalyst to propel you into your latest creation, where you can experience the freedom of practicing yoga in the jungle, the exhilaration of riding your first wave, and the opportunity to connect with some down to earth, good people….Shaka is where it’s at! My next retreat is in November, please check it out!  http://solalunayoga.com/retreats/

Gracias!!

 
 

Handstands!!

Hola!

I’ve been back in Denver for a visit and have spent some quality time with my family, friends and my teachers. I have spent the past several months living very simply and modestly…. in the jungle… on the beach….and it has been amazing! It was a bit overwhelming coming back to the States for me…so many decisions…so much traffic…so many people! I have realized, that I am happiest living very closely connected to nature, and away from life’s daily distractions….like cell phones…traffic lights….and just too many choices in general! I also realize that this too becomes a state of comfort….as much as I enjoy my “Pura Vida” lifestyle on a daily basis, I also need to reach beyond my comfort zone….if I want to see my family and community here.

This is where the yoga and the surfing come in. Finding comfort in the discomfort, skillfully navigating and mindfully maneuvering. Being able to stand on your hands, or on your board! Chasing a moving target, and also being held by your own unwavering strength! Life will continually pull us in many directions, and it also requires us to stand up for our right! The right to live our lives and follow our dreams, while also taking into consideration the people affected by our choices. Being good in the world isn’t always easy….and there is always a sacrifice.

While I am encountering this crazy, beautiful life….I’m at least gonna have fun! I’ve included a few handstand demos one with Desi, my teacher and friend…the other on a riverside in CO. So grateful for my old home and my new one! Love yoga…love surfing!! LOVE LIFE!!


Killing the comfort zone

Hola Friends,

Sridaiva

I have just arrived back in Denver after attending Desi Springer and John Friend’s Sridaiva workshop in San Jose, Costa Rica. This is my first trip back home to Denver, after spending several months in Costa Rica. I moved to Denver when I was 21 years old, and I met Desi Springer when I was 27. I am now 35 and have spent the past 8 years studying under Desi, and 5 of those years teaching at Vital Yoga, which she and her sister Micah own and operate. In addition to being one of my most beloved teachers, Desi is also one of best friends.

New Methodology

I have also been a student of Anusara Yoga for many of those years, and have benefited tremendously from the philosophy, and of course from the universal principals of alignment. These principals have been a valuable asset and practical tool during my years of study and practice. I know them like the back of my hand, they have become a place of comfort, of familiarity…..like home. When Desi and John introduced me to the new methodology behind Sridaiva, I was resistant and questioning….why? They were asking me to do things that felt strange and foreign in body, things that defied the principles that I had lived by for so long! In addition to being unfamiliar, it was freaking hard, asking my body to work in a different way, that required waking up some muscles that have also been living ‘pura vida” style!

The Unknown

We humans struggle with change, with unfamiliarity….we fear the unknown. But as we all know, some of the best adventures in life arise from “killing our comfort zone!” The first few days applying the new technology in my body and my mind made me more than uncomfortable…it was actually really pissing me off! Kind of like the first few months I was learning to surf and my continual struggle to learn Spanish and be able to communicate with my new friends! At the same time it left me wanting more, I began to connect with the new alignment and embraced the challenge of my own evolution….one that requires me to sometimes sit with the discomfort, to face my demons, to be embrace the unknown…..and most of all to be open to the ever expanding nature of the universe!

Another Adventure

I have decided after scrupulous debate that this new methodology is of service to myself and my students. I will continue to explore this new technology with an open heart and an open mind, embracing the unknown and embarking on yet another adventure!

Peace!


New Technology

Hola Friends,

This has been an exciting weekend. I am in San Jose attending a Sridaiva workshop with Desi Springer and John Friend. Desi has been one of my most beloved teachers and friends for nearly a decade. She and her sister Micah are the founders of Vital Yoga in Denver, where I studied and taught the yoga that I love for many years.

When she introduced the new methodology to me last week at Shaka, you could say I was a bit resistant. I immediately questioned why? Why would I want to do this? The old “if it ain’t broke don’t fix it”. Desi answered my questions with kind, logical, intelligent answers. She has obviously had her head  in the books, and spent some quality time on her mat exploring this new technology….and that is really what is….new technology.

Just as technology is continually evolving and advancing…so are we. Our bodies and our minds also require software updates and upgrades. Learning these new operating systems can be frustrating and often times challenging, but necessary for further growth and expansion.

I am in the process of exploring this new practice with an open heart and an open mind…..I will keep you posted as I practice this alignment more in depth over the next few week.

Gracias!


Ride the Wave!!

I’ve been kicking it in Costa Rica now for about seven months. When I arrived from Denver, I had only surfed a handful of times in my youth, while living in Florida…..that was a long time ago! So, at the ripe age of thirty-five, I have taken on one of the most difficult sports out there. It has been quite the humbling experience to say the least, and also one of the the most exciting! I have learned countless lessons about life and about myself, all while paddling my ass off trying to navigate through the powerful waves.

You never know what the day will present, some days the ocean is peaceful and forgiving….other days ferocious and relentless. Each time I paddle out, the experience is different. It’s the butter and shit analogy…that’s right…butter and shit, so well stated by Dr. Douglas Brooks. The universe is throwing two things at you…butter and shit…so you’d better get really good at dodging the shit…..and really good at receiving the butter!

Seems simple enough…right? Well, I’m still struggling, to be honest. One of the things I struggle with the most, is being fearful…I get scared of the shit and the gigantic waves!  Fear is necessary and helpful at times, but we can’t let it consume us either. The other day, I decided that I wasn’t going to be scared anymore….without good reason of course. I have good knowledge of the break, I am a strong paddler, and I have the most important thing….desire to kick ass…. and to get some butter!

IMG_6797Yesterday, I went surfing with that mind set and did just that! It was freaking awesome! Just what I needed to boost my moral! The ocean accommodated that desire for a second, letting me win a few….then she chewed me up and spit me out the next day! Defeated again….only for a moment!

Today however, was the best day I’ve ever had in the water….the months of practice finally had paid off! Riding a 6’4, short board, actually catching and riding most of the waves I attempted! When I awoke this morning, I was feeling a bit beat down and questioning whether or not I should even paddle out….so happy I did! Victory….at last….for now anyway!

Such is the pulsation of life….the continual ebb and flow….the rise and the fall…the peak and the trough. Without these fluctuations, we wouldn’t be able to ride the waves at all! Who wants to surf in a still ocean?!? Not me, I need a little more excitement than that! I’d rather have all of life’s confusing joy, with it’s pleasure and pain, it’s victory and it’s triumph!

With that being said, I also want to be skillful enough to get the hell out of the trough! My dear friend and teacher Desi Springer once said to me, “‘Megs, recognize the importance of the darkness, but always head in the direction of the light.” I will never forget the priceless value of those sincere words.

 


Ocean of Possibility

 

A SolaLunaYoga Reunion

“Ocean of Possibility”

With Megan Panchinin

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Vital Yoga Denver, CO

Friday, June 7th from 7:00-9:00pm

Cost: $25.00

 

Dear Friends,

 

I am requesting your presence for an evening of yogic celebration! After spending eight months in beautiful Costa Rica, I am returning home for a visit! I would love to share my personal adventures and new insights, regarding this infinite ocean of possibility we call life! We will explore these concepts through asana and pranayama. Can’t wait to see you all!!

 

 

In Gratitude,

Megan Panchinin

 


3 Week Get Fit Update!

Hola Friends,

We are a little over a week into our 3 week get fit program and things have been going well. I am getting into the flow, feeling strong and I’m excited to keep this going for a while. We both lost a few lb’s…not bad for the first week!

From Playa Hermosa to Playa Carmen

In addition to the diet, as far as exercise goes, we are mostly doing yoga and surfing. We had intended to do a little more of a variety, but we have had a full camp at Shaka and been keeping pretty busy around here! I did manage to bike a about 8 miles and Mo’e and I paddled the surf boards 4 miles…. all the way from Playa Hermosa to Playa Carmen! That was one of the most difficult things I have done in a while! Twice during the journey, I nearly broke down in tears I was so fatigued, but I pulled it together, sucked it up and made my way.

A State of Exhaustion

Whenever I get to a state of exhaustion like that, where I think I can’t go on, I have a few scenarios that I like to play out in my mind. I like to pretend I’m an Indian crossing the Rocky Mountains in a snow storm with a tee pee on my back. That’s one example…..the new one that I came up with during the journey, was to pretend I was in a ship wreck, stranded on a plank of wood, in shark infested water and I can spot an island in the distance….Playa Carmen was the island and I was gonna make it there without getting eaten alive! We don’t have to worry about sharks here, thank goodness, but it helped motivate me to keep moving!!

Remember Your Strength

It truly is amazing what we can accomplish when we put our minds to it! Our minds will always give up before our bodies, we have to push beyond that barrier and break into the power that lies within. This is true with anything, whether you are committing to a 3 week cleanse, a four mile paddle or a 90 minute yoga class! Remember your strength, reclaim your power and experience the natural high of completing an extraordinary challenge!